A feeling of emptiness, a cold damp place, an unwanted feeling... To me that's norm. The feeling of emptiness is worse than lack of being full, because you don't know what to use to fill that void you're experiencing. Is it love, it's it passion, is it self worth, is it a state of belonging? Well for now I use
food. Food of any kind. Hence the thirteen pounds packed on in the last six weeks. The thing is I don't think it's working, the more I eat, the more I need. So what is it that I rally crave?
I need forgiveness, from myself, that is was ok to make mistakes and learn from them. I need reassurance that the Lessons I have learned will indeed prove useful if I face another situation like what I've experienced. I need love, not from others, but from myself, because I'm worthy of my love for myself. I need forgiveness, of myself and others who've hurt me for their own self gain. I need comfort in knowing and accepting that I am human, and I'm not perfect and I'm not expected to be either of those.
sNoW
