This is the mind of a teenager. Sometimes I wonder why my friends don’t text me or call. Maybe because they think I’ve shut them out. Maybe because I wasn’t there when they needed me most. Maybe because they are sick of me. Every friend that I get close to they always end up leaving me. Moving to a different part of the state or moving to a different cover or their parents found a different better job. It does not matter to me because I’m able to make the feelings I have for the person vanish over time. Or that’s what I like to believe. I usually end up texting the person over time, even though I’m not big on texting. I just want to have a healthy relationship with one person that can come over my house anytime without their parents interfering or for me to just go to the movies with my friend. Don’t get me wrong I have friends I care about a great deal. I’m not a loner I am very social at school or at outings. I have about 5 friends I know I can come to if I’m feeling down and talk to them. I don’t know. Maybe I’m just greedy. I want everything but it seems that when I get it I am overwhelmed.
Olivia Murray.