So many things left unsaid, so many ideas swirling in my head. Days and nights lost never to be seen again, so much time lost in vain. Sitting in bed wondering what could have been, a beautiful future that will remain unseen. Life goes on, but it will never be the same, the sun is shining but inside it feels like rain. At a party with my friends, pretending to have a good time, obsessing, thoughts of you in my mind. Lying in bed, her head on my chest, looking at awoman that I know isn’t the best. Having dreams of past experiences shared, unable to think of a time in my life that you weren’t there. A smile turns into a frown when I see you walking down the street, dreading the possibility that our eyes will meet. Even the ocean breeze no longer feels the same, now all it seems to do is torture me with your name. Wandering through the night alone with my thoughts, trying to forget the smile on your face from that dress I had bought. That hugged you almost as good as my arms, me looking at you knowing I could never let anyone cause you harm. I wish I could tell you, I wish it was easy to do, I really want you to know, that…. I miss you.